|My Daddy and Me, Dec. 2000|
I tell you so much about my Daddy for you to get a glimpse of who he was in me eyes. When I was married and left home, I began to learn that my Daddy was very hurt. He had some struggles that had changed his heart and were weighing him down. Because of those hurts, his behavior changed completely. I did what I felt I was being called to do to protect my growing family from the hurt he was suffering from and the hurt he was causing because of his pain. I blame the enemy for my Daddy's suffering. I blame my pride for giving up on pursuing a better relationship with my Daddy. I begged him to get help. He wouldn't. My family longed for him to go back to his "old self". I don't the why or the plan, but God saw fit to take my Daddy from this world on Christmas Eve.
Again, my heart's desire is to challenge you to two things: forgive others who have hurt you, and get help for your hurts. Forgiveness is freedom. Even if the person doesn't ask for it or necessarily want it, you can still give it. You can turn that person over to the Lord in prayer. When you feel anger or bitterness toward that person rise up, stop and pray...pray for them, pray for yourself. DO NOT LET ANGER BE LOUDER THAN LOVE! If you are someone who is struggling with a hurt, habit, or hang-up (terms courtesy of Celebrate Recovery), I encourage you to get help! Go to a counselor, a pastor, a trusted friend. Do not take on the burdens of this world alone! Do not think you are helpless or hopeless. Giving in to the dark will change your life--you'll lose loved ones, relationships will disappear, the you that you were will go away. God has a plan for your life. He can take any situation and work it together for good! I KNOW!!! I have a list of sins and hurts I have committed. And, I found freedom in unloading those on a safe person, in a safe place for the purpose of turning your life around. If you need suggestions of how and where to get help, please let me know! I will get you in touch with wonderful people who can walk with you! Wherever you are in life, whatever struggle you are facing, what ever hurt you are processing, please remember that God loves you, He has a plan for you, and you are not alone!